Flashback

Today.. i saw something which caused me to be in daze for a while..
someone from Mum's block had passed away & when me & Keng Siong came back.. they were setting up the altar.....
We had parked at the front of the block near the lift lobby...
Mum wanted to go Dad's shop for accupunture and I volunteered to send her there as Keng Siong seems tired..
never had i expect to see what i saw when i step out of the lift, turn right and walk towards the car....
I saw the truck from SFS (Singapore Funeral Services).. the door was lifted up halfway.. and i saw the coffin and the dead person wrapped up in white cloth lying beside the coffin..
i was dumbstruck.. i was shocked.. i dont even know what to say...
i had to walk past it to get my car.. the truck was parked perpendicular to my car.. luckily i can drive out at an angle as there was no other cars parked beside mine.
Mum did not see it.. i confirmed with her as she was busy looking at the altar to see if it was someone that she knew from the block..
we chit chatted about some stuff along the way... i cant recalled what we talked about at all now...

On the way driving back.. i had a flashback.. not even sure if thats the correct word to use.. i saw Grandma in that exact situation.. tied in white cloth at the hospital and when the parlor service brought her back home... it hurts.. it really hurts...

I was just telling Keng Siong that i had almost tore out the red tape at mum's void deck last night when i walked back to collect something.. but there was someone standing at the lift lobby so i did not do that.. He was telling me that its not the physical red tape that is bothering me.. its the tape in my mind... (for those who are not aware what i am talking about.. at Gandma wake.. we had stick some red tape around the floor to warn people of the uneven surface and it was still there as no one had tore it off.. there were about 4-5 strips of red tape and each tape will measure easily about 1 metre. so u can imagine how obvious it look against the grey floor of the void deck)