Saturday, August 8, 2009

My Alarm Bell Rings

Alarm bell rings.. i had been feeling on & off these few days.. in fact for nearly a whole week since i recovered from flu... on last friday.. my left upper lip started twitching.. i got the shock of my life.. i had just read an article about stroke.... my parents quickly came over and i had accupunture.... on monday.. it happened again.. i was just resting after my lunch of instant noodle when my left lip twitch again and my left cheek felt numb and i felt giddy..
Panic..... i closed all the windows. cancel my meeting and rushed a cab to my dad TCM shop.. my blood pressure was at 140/90.. very high... i had accupuncture all over my head, face & arm
i felt better after the treatment.. i was so worried about getting stroke.... thought of how Granny passed away also came to my mind.. i was physically & mentally exhausted... Dad keep asking me to cut down on fried food.which i had already done some time ago. it was my irregular schedule of meals...

LQ's Food Tasting

We had food tasting for LQ's wedding on 2 Aug.. it felt strange.. i was expecting to see Granny there... she was also in my food tasting..
Food was good and we started talking abt the sequence of the day event.
I was somber when we started about the timing to offer prayers to the ancestors. Granny should be at the event and not as a place to be offered incense to... but thats a fact that we can no longer reverse...... she would have been smiling ear to ear...............

I lost count

I lost count.....Time really flies...
its 125 days today and its National Day.. I only have very vague memories of what had happened since Jul 14 till now..
I remember that we had went to the temple to offer prayers to Grandma... i remember that it was early and i was there with Jonas, Jovan and the maid as Siong was stuck in NDP Meeting.
I remember I told Grandma that I loved her and I missed her so much.

I recalled for that evening i was in a semi dazed.. I was very exhausted and i was asking myself if Grandma was really gone.. such a joke.. of course .....